Caged
by: Tammi

I'm hurting inside
I can't feel my heart beating
Something is not there
A part of me is missing

I'm so alone
Trapped inside my mind
It's always been this way
Just me, myself, and I

I am not truly understood
Just a "normal depressed teen"
I am not them at all
The real me is not seen

When I'm sad
I put on a fake smile
When in reality
My tears could run for miles

If I showed myself to you
You wouldn't like me
So I only show you what I want

I'm scared to let you know
So when you ask how I feel
I'll just say, "I'm fine, you?"
Don't expect the real deal

But does it really matter?
What if I said "shitty"
Would you care?
Or just pity me?

I wish I could just run
Away from the lies
Away from the heartless people
Who couldn't care less if I died

Away from my fake cheerfulness
From trying to make others happy
The ones that I think deserve to be
Wouldn't care what happens to me

Away from just everyone
And everything
Because pain in the end
Is all that it brings

Should I not run?
What happens when I face it?
I get hurt even more
What's the point, I don't get it

Why do I hurt so easily?
Do I care too much? Or am I the only one who does
And no one else gives a fuck?

Why do I feel this way?
People say I have it easy
I'm not ungrateful
Because I act like no one pleases me

I don't have many things
At least not anything pure
I want something that's real
I want to be adored

I want to be loved
I want to be cared for
I want people to listen with their eyes
Not anything more